#project mixtape

[viscerawrites]

fearing what the light finds •/ a casual intro

genre •/ contemporary, eventual portal fantasy

overall goal •/ a series of connected short stories, currently planned to be posted on ao3 as written.

part of •/ project mixtape

target age range •/ 18+

tw •/ kidnapping, captivity, sexual assault, murder, attempted suicide (and ongoing suicidal ideation), depictions of trauma and mental illness, highly complex feelings around abusers, disordered eating, poor self-image, self-blame, generally dysfunctional behavior.

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author's notes.

this series of short stories is part of a bigger project that i, for now, am calling mixtape - where i create a character and use the discography of a specific band to "document" the character's life story (or generally significant personal story).

fearing what the light finds is based around the discography of the band Spiritbox, and is currently planned to encompass all their songs up to their ep The Fear of Fear. any new music they release may or may not be added to the series; we will see!!

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the gist of it.

fearing what the light finds follows the character of Eden Jade Heller. Kidnapped at the age of 19 and held captive for 9 years, Eden Jade is 28 years old when she murders her tormentor and attempts to end her own suffering, only to be saved by the faceless entity who comes to her in her dreams. Believing that it is there to guide her into death, she finds herself shocked and in disbelief when she wakes up in a world that is nothing like her own.

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taglist: none yet!

[casdeans-pie]

"It's a gift. You keep those."

These lattes taste perfect together. Hints of sweet devotion and bitter yearning. A touch of gunsmoke and angel grace.

[kayrosebee]

October 6, 2024

280/366

"Made up my mind to make a new start

Going to California with an aching in my heart

Someone told me there's a girl out there

With love in her eyes and flowers in her hair"

-Going to California, Led Zeppelin

💙💚

[chongoblog]

I’m not gonna lie, it sometimes kinda sucks having like 50 things you want to create because then none of them get done

[occvltswim]

Triple Six Mafia - Club Memphis (Underground Volume 2)

[mentalmarquee]

Latest mixtape- 90 minutes long, each side has a different theme. Available to listen to (mostly) on spotify:

Touhou Jazzmagoria - Touhou jazz covers by all the usual heavy-hitters in the doujin scene who do that genre of music.

girls be ambitious!!!!!!!!!!!! - Showa to Reiwa music for girlies.

[marnievanhelsing]

MIXTAPES!!!!!! Burnt the cds on my laptop with a disc drive and made the cd case covers on canva.

[raindrvq]

if Bully didn't take place at a boarding school in a tiny little town where there's really no need for a car, Hunter would be the driver friend. he crams everyone into his car and is like "we'll be fine we can all fit". there are ppl sitting on the floor. ppl are sitting on each other's laps. someone's stuck in the trunk. everyone spends the entire ride praying they don't pass by any cops. someone complains abt it and he just starts going on about how much he loves his car and how its not a big deal. its not that tight of a fit. his center console is filled with mixtapes he carefully crafted and probably got 20 viruses downloading the music off limewire. dreaming of the day he can get a cd changer. theres fuzzy dice hanging from his mirror. he has a cd holder hanging from the visor. his keys have way too many keychains and they're so loud. its 12am and him and all his buddies are all crammed in his car in the jack in the box drive thru abt to order the whole ass menu

[cato-of-blamesociety]

A year ago, I made reached the milestone of halfway through the #32weeksmixtape

Very few will ever know what I felt at this moment, what I was going through, the stress, the growth, and expression of creativity with images and words.

Full song/video: Week 16 | My Life Remix

[omegaremix]

Omega Radio for December 16, 2017; #151.

Slowdive “Star Roving”

Fazerdaze “Lucky Girl (Little Uneasy)"

Hundredth “Hole (Visual)”

Bike Thiefs “Destination Wedding”

Gingerlys “Turtledoves”

Ariel Pink “Feels Like Heaven”

Girlpool “1…2…3…”

Deerhoof “Singalong Junk”

Lee Ranaldo “Circular (Right As Rain)”

Diet Cig “Tummy Ache”

Courtneys, The “Silver Velvet”

Daddy Issues “I’m Not”

Priests “No Big Bang”

Current Affairs “Eyes”

Dame “Lines”

Breakfast Muff “R U A Feminist”

King Gizzard & The Lizard Wizard “Mr. Beat”

Cende “Don’t Want To”

Idles “Mother”

Naomi Punk “Cardboard”

Protomartyr “A Private Understanding”

Pissed Jeans “Bar Is Low, The”

Institute “Powerstation”

Japandroids “No Known Drink Or Drug”

Sorority Noise “No Halo”

Tasty “La-Dee-Dah”

Taiwan Housing Project “Veblen Death Mask”

Metz “Mr. Plague”

RMBLR “Name Game”

Suspirians “Nocturne”

Downtown Boys “Somos Chulas (No Somos Pendejas)”

Wolf Alice “Yuk Foo”

War Brides “Thyme”

Unstoppable Death Machines “City Lights”

Tunic “Eye Contact”

Unsane “Aberration”

First of two Winners Of '17 broadcasts.

[mixtapenempire]

Finally... after putting it off and taking time to study the fight...

The orange... it permanently haunts me, the emotional track brings me to tears.

And by god.. I love every bit of this game.

I won't spoil it beyond what I arguably already have on this blog. But if anyone here needs to know something when they pick up project wingman.. you don't understand the power of the music until you actively play the game yourself and let yourself immerse into the theme, the game, everything.

All in all, project wingman is fun when you don't do a checklist, and just admire the work in the game. And I don't think anyone could have it any other way..

[viscerawrites]

i now have 3 installments in mind for this 🫠 potentially a 4th too lol

if anyone's curious, these are the installments i have in mind for now:

fearing what the light finds (Spiritbox)

child, burning (The Plot In You)

your mouth full of flowers (Silent Planet, but specifically their album Superbloom)

ok. but consider: me taking a band i REALLY like, making a character about it, and then using that band's discography to document that character's life story

[casdeans-pie]

I made a scrapbook to put all my signed latte art into ❤️ Collecting them like pokemon cards. A normal hobby to have

(Why is Misha on here three times? I love him next question)

[kayrosebee]

May 18, 2024

139/366

"Made up my mind to make a new start

Going to California with an aching in my heart

Someone told me there's a girl out there

With love in her eyes and flowers in her hair"

-Going to California, Led Zeppelin

💙💚

[naradivision]

Miraitabi Summer Mixtape:

Σ for Σummer 🌻🌊

Disclaimer: All songs here belong to their respective artists! And since this mixtape was made under the impression of a travel diary, I highly recommend to watch in chronological order... Therefore, are you ready? Pack your belongings and let’s gooo!

Bon Voyage 𓇼 ⋆.˚ 𓆉 𓆝 𓆡⋆.˚

“... A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step...”

6 AM — DAYBREAK ✶ FRONTLINE

Performed by

Yuuya “ARROW” Kanata

Covered & arranged by: If  | Original by: orangestar ft. IA ❈ Let’s start it with the queen of summercore vocaloid songs: orangestar

9 AM — Kaisei (Clear Weather)

Performed by

Yuuya “ARROW” Kanata

ANGE

Covered & arranged by: FantasticYouth (Onyu x LowFat)  Original by: orangestar ft. IA ❈ FantasticYouth my beloved... There is also the rap parts where LowFat-san incorporates various references to orangestar’s other songs —One of it being “Daybreak Frontline”, the previous song of this mixtape (Sources / Translation)

10 AM — DESTIN4TI★N

Performed by 

Yuuya “ARROW” Kanata

Asahi “SWEET-T” Tomoharu

Real Title: ともに (Tomoni) | Original by: WANIMA Covered by: Araki, Gero

1 PM —  Dear you, 夏めく

Performed by 

Yuuya “ARROW” Kanata

Real Title:  Hana ni Bourei (Ghost In A Flower) Covered by: soraru  |  Original by: Yorushika ❈  夏めく (Natsumeku) in Japanese means “It feels like summer” usually implying that the season is beginning… And also the alias of a certain someone important to Miraitabi’s leader

5 PM — That Dream Within A Dream

Performed by 

Yuuya “ARROW” Kanata

Real Title:  夢のまた夢 (Yume no Mata Yume) Covered by: Araki  |  Original by: Mafumafu

// ALERT ALERT: The sun is going down

“Hey, wakes up sleepyhead! Isn’t it almost time for the festival?!”

7 PM — 夏祭り🏮 (Natsu Matsuri)

Performed by 

Yuuya “ARROW” Kanata

Asahi “SWEET-T” Tomoharu

Saigo “Tsukumogami” Futugami

ANGE

Covered by:  Amatsuki, 96neko, Eve, soraru, luz Original by:  JITTERIN’JINN & Whiteberry  

⊹₊ ✶⋆ Uchiage Hanabi?

7:30 PM — Uchiage Hanabi ✻

Performed by

Yuuya “ARROW” Kanata

ANGE

Covered by:  Amatsuki, 96neko Original by: DAOKO x Kenshi Yonezu ❈ Loves other versions too, but this one is special... With genius kain-san’s mix, you can even hear fireworks in the background

But you know,

Fireworks aren’t the only lights of summer

Now with a shining lantern in your hands

Let’s send off our regards

To somewhere far faraway...

9 PM —  燈花会 (Tokae)

Performed by

Yuuya “ARROW” Kanata

Real Title: Hyakka Ryouran (A Sea of Lanterns) ❈ Although it’s my intention to refer this song to the one astounding festival in Nara (picture below), actually according to the fan assumption (Source / Translation); looks like this song has an implication to the artist’s hometown, Fukushima, which also hosts the “Tōrō Nagashi” where people will light and float the lanterns down the river or the ocean in order to commemorate for their lost ones. Meanwhile, both of these festivals are the ceremonies held around the days of Obon —The traditional Buddhist holidays dedicated to honor ancestral spirits and pay respect to the dead. ❈ Also to people who follow paralive, are you perhaps familiar with this voice?

Prologue — Σ of Σummer (Tomorrow Still Goes On)

Performed by

Yuuya “ARROW” Kanata

Asahi “SWEET-T” Tomoharu

Saigo “Tsukumogami” Futugami

ANGE

The members of “SPECTRA” Band

Real Title: Summertime Record Covered by: Ryushen, Saegusa Akina, Hakase Fuyuki, Higuchi Kaede, Hoshikawa Sara, Mashiro, Lain Paterson, Nishizono Chigusa, Machita Chima, Lize Halesta, Inui Toko, Watarai Hibari, Genzuki Tojiro Original by: Jin ft. IA (Kagerou Project)

And finally, Sayonara our dear Summer,

As ephemeral but astounding as the spark of Senko Hanabi, here the season has winded down to an end...

Thank you for watching!

Hope to see you again in the next season...

But eh... Whose season is there?

➤ Also, credit the dividers by: @cafekitsune and @firefly-graphics

[corruptn3o]

she a crazy fool!!!